It is exactly a year to the day that lovely Mr KT (aka Dave) passed away during his much longed for liver transplant operation. The first few weeks after his passing I felt as though I was lost in a kind of "fog", shock mixed with raw grief I suppose. Hence it did take me a while to get going again with KT Miniatures, but...slowly and surely life began to move forward with the help of family and friends.
Suddenly and very quickly (like so many others thrust into the same position), I have had to learn to deal with problems that I'd never had to before in all my 36 years of marriage. Mostly because they were Dave's area of expertise and he would automatically sort them. Probably to date, the most challenging have been technical problems with the computer and KT Miniatures' website, and all things to do with my car! But I am learning and have surprised myself in what I've been able to do.
One of the best pieces of advice from someone given to me after the funeral was to keep busy...and I have been doing just that. Ok, occasionally grief has a nasty habit of creeping up when I least expect it but it passes, and the secret is definitely not to sit and mope, but to get out there and do something.
And although it hurts like mad that he missed his daughter's graduation ceremony last autumn, that he missed a son's wedding this January and was not here to share in the pure joy of our first grandchild recently born or indeed the impending birth of a second grandchild soon to be born...life does feel so much better now.
Dave was naturally a very positive and optimistic person right up to the very end, he used humour to help him and me cope with his prolonged illness, even in his darkest hours. What is rather nice is that we as a family can smile or chuckle when we talk about him now.
Thanks once again to everyone for your kindness and friendship given over these past few surreal months and for your continued support to KT Miniatures.
I think at last we are well and truly on the up at this end now, and life seems a lot more rosy:)